another love letter brendan will never read

Dear Brendan,

Thank you. For understanding my fears, for trying to be clearer for me, for loving me when I’m so hard to love. I know I was childish this morning. I should be more confident in the knowledge that you’ll be there for me if I need. Thank you for reminding me not to retreat too far into my head.

This letter is a little shorter because we talked it through so extensively and you’ve been so amazing to me, so there’s not much more that I can say that I haven’t said already, but… here I am still. Because my feelings are so intense that I can’t really do anything else with them.

I don’t think you realize just how much I admire you. When I see you, I can’t take my eyes off you because I still think it’s so amazing that you want to be with me. And it doesn’t hurt that you’re attractive too /)/////////( but I digress. I really do admire you a lot, not in the “I think you’re someone to put on a pedestal and worship” although I will admit that I tend to idealize you a lot because you’re so kind to me in ways that I’m just not used to, but in the “I can’t believe I get to share a space with this person and call them mine.” It’s a little (more like extremely) egotistical of me but my chest really swells when I see you and I realize that you’re my boyfriend, emphasis on the my.

You hold a special place in my heart (as in you occupy the entirety of my heart lmao) and I’m so glad I know you. I’m truly lucky to be your partner.

All the love in the world,

Rosie