i’m really not looking forward to school

i don’t want to interact with people

i don’t want to do club things

i kind of want to go partying but to do that i have to interact with people and i don’t want to interact with people

i don’t want to overload both semesters but here i am

i don’t want to spend close to a year away from brendan

i know i’m moving to texas, all my closest friends live there and i’d love to see them even if things don’t quite line up between brendan and me, and the savings account i have will cover a house and a car and furniture (probably)

i just want to take my diploma and go

i want to feel warm and safe

but this place makes me feel cold inside