wow what would it be like for my parents to treat me like an actual person!!!

i thought things were getting better between my mom and me since i did the good student thing and got into amherst and middlebury and got that scholarship and she said that all things considered i turned out okay considering how she’d done things to me that weren’t okay

but she just killed the savings account that she said i wasn’t allowed to touch because it was so that i could be a homeowner and cut off all my finances and now she’s so angry that i’m not talking to her like family because i changed over to using full on 존대말 with her and now she’s all “wow your language acquisition skills are really amazing, you haven’t taken korean classes since elementary school and yet you know EXACTLY how to build walls between us”

i just

this is probably why i didn’t know what feeling safe was like until i went to brendan’s